Status that Turned into a Blog Post

It's so surreal when those moments of a larger self awareness take place, and you have a few seconds or minutes to ponder your own frailty, and the unpredictability of life. "Will I make it through this intersection without someone running a red light and broadsiding me?" "Why is my wife running so late tonight?", "Will this driver see my motorcycle coming and not pull out in front of me?", "Will I see my kids grow up?" "Will my marriage live on 'til death do us part'?" (and yes, my marriage is fine -- it just scares me how many people split up after DECADES together!), etc., etc., etc.

Not to try and invoke feelings of fear, pain, or depression; It is just amazing how often we do not realize the absolute impossibility of actually directing our own destiny. (I'm sure the guy in Miami was not planning to get his face eaten off last week.)

It is a bit disconcerting to think about those things, but probably good to realize at the same time. Buuuuut... since there's really nothing we can do about it, there is no reason to live in fear of the unknown... Things will happen every day and whether they were predestined, or truly random, they still happen. We can't stop any of it, so when you are able to, soak up all the incredible things around you. "...Suck out all the marrow of life..." (to quote Thoreau).

I find it very unrealistic and financially impossible to actually "live each day like it's your last," or to think of each day as "the beginning of the rest of your life." If it was ACTUALLY my last day to live, I would not get up at 6:30 to go sell vinyl siding and roofing supplies. I don't know exactly what I would do, but I guarantee it'd be with my family, not at work. But I digress. And now I will shut up. Cuz this was supposed to be a status update; not a blog post. :-P